cornered and sullen

have you ever tried applying for some clubs in school? that membership is really a big deal that you need to be in a deliberation. I did. Just yesterday. I cant believe how nervous I was and how shaky I could be when I was froonting 8 alumnis throwing question at you continuously.

I was ask to take a photo of something and describe it. I borrowed the teacup and took a picture of it. I took it because like a teacup filled with water once you put something on it the water inside it spills on the surface its because the pressure of that, lets say for example, a cookie was swiftly poured over it we can notice that the water inside it spills though the cup is still and unchangeable. I believe that at very moment thats how I feel when Im inside with the alumnis I felt like even if Im still on the surface once you shock my individuality I get very messy and shambolic considering that not only one person is throwing a question on me and that most of them are very alien to my vision. That is what Im trying to explain but since Im quietly disturb and became conscious of the things that surrounds me I fucked my whole idea of the teacup leaving me into something that in not understandable.

Maybe the valor would be more strong if only I knew them before. But I believe it happened for a reason because if those people thats going to interview me are my acquaintance how could I be able to know what real life is in the real world if I continue on relying to those people I know? well, atleast now Ive learned how to deal with those kind of interviews most especially when there are many of them facing you and throwing questions at you.